Where You Lead, I Will Follow

I don't really know what to write. My life isn't partially...exciting. All I do is school and basketball. (By the way...game on Saturday against XC...super excited!) But anyways...my life is pretty mundane...everyday...routine. But maybe that isn't all bad. It is nice to have a change every now and then...but maybe God makes this routine for me for a purpose. I know something that might 'break' that routine...if only for a little while. I'm turning 17 in two days!!!

Why do we have such trouble trusting that God knows best? Why is it so much easier to try to go our own way? I'm kind of at a time right now that I'm really not sure which way to go. And this probably sounds stupid because its not like what I do next year will either make or break my future or my life forever! So...yeah I'm not really sure what I'm going to do next year. Naz is not going to be a high school next year and that has been where I have played sports ever since I was a freshman and that was also how I hung out with people. I wanted to have so much fun for my Senior Year. And I'm sure that I can still have a lot of fun my Senior Year! I mean, God knows what I want but He knows best, right? I was looking forward to playing volleyball again...for now I will never really get to play it again on a team, probably (except for intermirals in college which I will totally do!!!) and I also wanted to play basketball for one more year & also get to know the people there better. They are amazing and I love them and we probably won't see each other much anymore after this year :( I also wanted to go on a missions trip with some of my friends from Naz...but it looks like that won't happen now. So I'm not sure where God is leading me, but I know that He is leading me somewhere...maybe toward something that I can actually include in my future! Where You Lead, I Will Follow.

For not knowing what to say I said quite a lot! Haha. Just one more thing....if you are like me and you feel like everyday is the same...maybe a little boring? I would encourage you to enjoy every minute that you have because you will never get that minute...that hour...that day back again. <3 peace :)

Give It Your ALL-Yes That Means Everything

I have come to realize that I often wish my life away. I don't mean too...I say I love my life and where I am (well, sometimes...) but I do. I'm always looking forward-toward summer or college or reaching adulthood or anything like that, that I forget to enjoy every day. I'm so incredibly busy, mostly with school, that it is often hard to have fun. Usually I don't really have time to have fun until the weekends...but most weekends I don't even end up doing anything that is really all that fun! So just remember to have as much fun as possible every day, even if you're busy because you only get today once...and you only get to be a teenager once so let's live it up!! [Rosalind, you inspired this ;) haha]

Also, whatever you love doing...give it all you got. Work at it, even if it gets tough. Chance is that God put that desire to be good at that something (whatever it happens to be) in you for a reason...maybe its part of His Plan for YOUR life :) So don't quit...even when its hard, even when you feel like quitting, even when no one understands...stay strong & keep going! [Emma you sorta inspired this ;)]

I love Jonny Diaz's music so check this out:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=af-4-eY13OM

You Make Me Beautiful

I was so unique
Now I feel skin deep
I count on the make-up to cover it all
Crying myself to sleep cause I cannot keep their attention
I thought I could be strong
But it's killing me

Does someone hear my cry?
I'm dying for new life

I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful

Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me
Fighting to make the mirror happy
Trying to find whatever is missing
Won't you help me back to glory


You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful

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As a girl, I often think about my outward appearance. As hard as I try not too, I confess, I still do. There are definitely times when I want to be beautiful and make someone 'stand in awe' sort of, as weird as that sounds. But then on the second chorus of the song...it just reminds me that God makes me beautiful on the inside, which is what really matters anyway! He steps inside of my heart and I am amazed. And someday I want to hear HIM say that I am quite enough. I love this song so much and it is so realavent to my life and I'm sure to yours as well.

Completely Random

I am so tired right about now. I feel like my feet are about to fall off! haha Yes, I had a basketball game tonight and I sucked...like seriously. haha. But we'll get 'em next time, right? I can't believe we lost to TEMPLE! We beat them soo easily last year...but that was last year and I guess I just need to step it up and be a better leader. It was a hard game. I was sooo mad for the last couple minutes of the game. I totally pushed # 5 pretty hard towards the end!! haha If I could only make my free throws...that would help a lot! I haven't even shot any 3s yet, that I remember. If I have, they haven't gone in. I'm not usually out that far...since I'm basically sorta/kinda a post "player"...even though I don't really like playing post very much. Its better this year though because I actually sorta know what's going on and what I'm supposed to be doing lol. I really should be doing school right now...grr I am soo tired of school taking over my life.I was gone from 2:45 to like 7:45, so...that was a big chunk out of my day, which didn't help me get anything done!

Christmas Break is fading fast...

I can't believe Christmas break has already come and gone. Tomorrow the mundane, routine thing called daily life continues. I am trying very hard not to dread it but I can't help but dread it! I mean I had 3 weeks off for Christmas break and I'm not going to lie, it was really super nice! Even though I didn't really end up doing all that much it was just nice to get out of routine for a while and to relax and not have to do schoolwork every second of the day! Lord, please help me to not get bothered or distracted with the routine, business of life and forget why I am here in the first place. This week is going to be really busy. On top of getting used to my daily routine again, I have four basketball games this week! I believe they are on Tuesday, Thursday, Friday, & Saturday! Talk about crazy! Then, of course, Good News Club is starting up again (A bible study for elementary kids at a school that I help out with). This week should be interesting and I'm not really looking forward to most of it, but its going to come whether I want it to or not...so I might as well at least TRY to have a good attitude!